KaTi3boo19:Lol yes it is haha, no but like i don't want big gifts I want like something spontaneous on random days that are memerable
LeoLY09:lol still into that fairy tale stuff huh? haha
KaTi3boo19:Lol felipe used to do it haha it's not a fairy tale!
LeoLY09:stop being picky.
LeoLY09:maybe it'd be easier to find the guy if u stop having specific expectations about his personality
KaTi3boo19:I just need a guy with a sense of humor and sarcasm and i'll be good oh and good looks of course
LeoLY09:im sure the guys who like you dont expect you to be a specific way. and if dey do, its definintely not a hard party girl who drinks and smokes bud and randomly wakes up with tumors on her back and does great in school and is into romance
KaTi3boo19:lmao! man when you put it that way I'm like a walking contradiction
LeoLY09:which is attractive ina way
LeoLY09:except the tumors
LeoLY09:nobody likes that
KaTi3boo19:lmao! yea that was definitely a wtf moment
KaTi3boo19:when i got it
LeoLY09:lol im gonna write u down as "a freak in the sheets and a contradiction in the streets" lol
I am everything. I am everything I want me to be. I’m a ball of matter wrapped around the silhouette of my body. I am better than what you perceive me to be. I am worse than anything my heart desires. I am a walking contradiction, but isn’t the world a mass of contradiction? Doesn’t the USA contradict itself everyday telling us that we have, “freedom and justice for all,” when in actuality the government is passing intricate laws that work around our national liberty—just another thought while showering.
I remember my sophmore year when I finally transfered into weehawken high school after living in weehawken for a year already. I wanted to meet new people because I was just really bored with North Bergen. First of all I never knew Weehawken even existed until I moved in with my mom, I mean it barely does, what is it a 4 by 4 town (Lol). I’m just exaggerating. But yea so what I was thinking about this morning was when I met Lisa. She was like my bestfriend from that school and me and her were complete opposites; I mean she was all rockered out with piercings everywhere and tattoos. You really would’ve never thought I would be hanging out with her at that time because I was this innocent quiet girl, but she was quiet too so one day when she was sitting alone I just asked if I could sit next to her because I didn’t like many of the losers in my cooking class yet. And since there we started hanging out. I rememeber she had asked me, “Oh I must’ve devirginized your eyes.” Well let me tell you why she said that and what I said. She invited me to some get together party type thing and their music is EAR BREAKING! Like it’s hardcore screamo about like “I worship Satan” I was like woah! She even asked me if I listen to that I’m like hell no! I was into commercial music at that time. Alright so we go to a liquor store, we get our stuff go to secaucus yadi yadi yada. Okay so she’s trying to get me drunk well every actually was lol, til this day I don’t know why, well maybe cause I was so innocent and quiet. Yea, I took shots and shots and I’m like oh I feel nothing, needlesstosay, that snuck up on me later on when I had to walk home from the middle of weehawken o.O. Oh okay so Lisa she’s a freak and goes, oh katherine look and takes out her boyfriends 12 inch dick right in front of me and started playing with it so it could grow bigger O.O. She’s like oh sorry virgin eyes, I’m like that’s just not human. It’s a monster! lmao. Yea so back in cooking class we talk about it, and me “trying to be cool” I’m like oh no I’m not a virgin, which was true, I had sex with 3 guys already, which was not true. I only had sex with one guy and we went out for a year. I really do think she devirginized my eyes O.O Oh yea and she asked me to try pot with her and i’m like no and she took pills wow she was a crazy bitch and my bestfriend in weehawken, go figure Lol. Opposites attract.
I hate people that are so full of themselves. I mean, it’s alright to be confident in the fact that your way of thinking is more unusual than others. Unusual is good because you do not have the original mind set, but if everyone decided to be unusual then unusual would become original and a normal mind would be considered unusual. Everyone is unique in their own way and many people believe that their mind is superior than others just for the fact that “no one views the world through there eyes and processes everything exactly the way that they would” so in their eyes they are unusual, but I think unusual is seeing the world around you as not what it is, but what it can be. You don’t see things how they usually are. Do you look at an apple and say “yum” or do you look at an apple and create a poem in your head about the textures, and shape or do you look at an apple and say, “I could make an apple pie with this. Preception is the key; everyone’s preception is different, but what comes out of that preception determines usual or unusual. What may be unusual to someone might be usual to someone else, then is everyone ordinary in the eyes of everyone else?
I wish everyday was like this…well minus the wind. I want to lay in the grass and make shapes out of the fluffy clouds.
do you remember when we did that? when we had cut class to travel to the village and lay on the on the beautiful grass the pier had to offer us and stare at the sky and gaze for shapes and things that made us smile and laugh together. I miss those days when we had fun doing absolutely anything.
Yea I miss those days too <3 We need to start doing that again, chill normally and talk about random bullshit. Once all this school stuff is over with, during my break we are doing some extra hanging out time.
Is your body and soul abstractly intertwined or are they two seperate entities? And just because I believe a soul exists am I forced to believe heaven and hell exists as well? I mean logically if both heaven and hell do exist I would assume everyone on earth would go to hell because not one man or woman is perfect, but then again Chritians believe in forgiveness, so then only people of that faith would go to heaven? Then where would atheists go since they have no religion? Would their spirits just roam around earth and never leave because they are noncomformists and believe not to believe because there is no actual evidence? or would they go to hell because they didn’t believe in God. I’d think heaven and hell would be pretty full if they did exist because we’re talking about the beginning of time here. Where exactly are these two places then? Heaven isn’t in the sky because I’ve been up there and I don’t see no spiritual kingdom. I see clouds and atmosphere, no heaven. And heaven couldn’t be in outerspace because then man at one point would have meantioned this discovery. And hell can’t be under ground because we have dug far enough to know what’s beneath the surface. And at the core is molten hot liquid; there was no recollection that a hell was there. This is why religion is a belief, it is not based on factual evidence. Everyone wants to believe there is something else out there and you know what I’m not saying there couldn’t be, but until that time comes when I die, I will know exactly what happens. Maybe I’ll take my last breath and that’s it or maybe my spirit will live on or maybe I will live as a tree or an animal or another human being. No one knows and no one will ever know because no one has died and came back to life. If you find someone who did, let me know, I want to ask them a few questions.
I just feel like talking about random stuff right now because I am hyped up on sugar at the moment. I almost drank a whole cup of coffee which helped me through the revisions of my “Intro to Lit” research paper. I’m hopeing for an A, A- the lowest, but this teacher is psycho sometimes so you never know with her. I mean I really did change a lot and it’s obvious that the paper is so much better than before. I want an A damn it! Lol oh man this is me trying to be a perfectionist again. Katie it is okay to not have all A’s for the semester, a B+ is not going to hurt you any. Common I look at all my friends going to universities and the highest grade they get is a C+. Wha what? I could never let myself get that low of a grade. And if at any time that does happen I will busssssssssssssssst my little behind to get all A’s the next semester just to make up for that C+. You would see me confined to my computer perfecting every single paper. I’d like have no social life… haha that would never happen. I’d go crazy if I could be my bestfriends. I LOVE YOU DANNY! AND SLAPPY! AND KAREEM (sometimes Lol) AND CARLOS AND GONZO AND ABNNER AND ABE AND JESS AND any other close friend I forgot about. Oh yea ROSANI! <333 KATHY P.! uhm uhm uhm idk man, it’s too EARLY! well not really. It’s 11:41 right now. Booblahshamoooooe. LOL. That reminds me of my conversation with this girl Xiomara. We just kept saying Shamoooe, it was funny, even though I really don’t remember what else there was too that conversation. Lalala bye.
Stars fading but I linger on, dear—Still craving your kiss; I’m longing to linger til dawn, dear. Just saying this: Sweet dreams til sunbeams find you. Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you, but in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.