You know we always start out with a hello and end with a goodbye. Why is there always a beginning and an ending, there just can’t be a beginning that never ends. Like a period it’s the end of my sentence so it’s the end of a thought and that thought will never be the same after you have thought or written it, wow(.) Here we go again with those periods, it feels like that my final word, but there are so much other words to be said. I hate how everything that begins ends like your born and every other day from that day is one more step to dieing. Like how pessimistic does that sound? Whoever thought of that one must’ve lived on a stranded island for half their life and their only friendd was a soccer ball named Wilson who eventually floated away into the sea after an “arguement.” Well in the end he went back to his wife and started a new beginning, so maybe there’s not always an end to every beginning maybe their a new beginning to the end.
Well besides that,
I’m in a kind of mellow happiness mood. If you haven’t noticed I talk a lot of random bullshit that seems like it has no point to it, but actually what I write does just in an indirect way. So I’m tired of writing, I’m about to go shower now. Toodles.
A definition of a bestfriend is someone who is always there for you when you need them the most. You are also there for them when they need you the most. You hang out with them constantly and never get bored of them. You see them atleast twice a week or maybe more. A bestfriend is someone who won’t leave you for anyone else. They are the people who you cry to, they are the people you get aggrivated with the most, they are the people who you share the best laughs with. You always have a million insiders so when someone new comes along they have no idea what we’re talking about. They might not give the best advice about loved ones, but atleast they show that they care by giving some type of input. You can act a fool and they won’t judge you because they know that they want to do exactly the same.
A definition of a friend is someone who you talk to about random stuff in your or their lives. You see each other a couple times a month, not too much. They are one of those people that when you see each other there is always a story to tell cause you haven’t seen them as much as a bestfriend. A friend is still someone you can count on for minor advice. You talk to them every week or day, but mostly online or through text messaging. A friend is someone you had a lot of experiences with, but their just not there all the time.
A definition of a buddy is someone you always have short conversations with. Nothing serious. You’ll see that person maybe once in a month or even go months without seeing them and finally hang out again and act like if you’ve seen each other every day.
A definition of acquaintance is someone you say hi and bye to. You acknowledge their existance, but don’t really care. Well no that sounds mean, well it just depends on the person.
Then theirs the stalker type person they try to talk to you and you try to not talk to them, but your too nice of a person to ignore them all the time. I mean common stop IMing me ‘cause I don’t like or want you :giggles: . They want to be your friend and you just don’t want anything to do with them. Now this sounds mean, but I need to get this off my chest cause people just annoy me that. Like if I haven’t talked to you in over a year that must tell you something or even if I haven’t hung out with you in over a year that must tell you something too. I’m (A) trying to avoid you or (B) you did something that I didn’t like so now your in this catagory of frienship.
I’m so freakin sick right now it’s not even cool. I feel like death just knocked on my door. Like “Hello Katherine :evil laugh: you will sneeze your brains out today with a pinch of stomach cramps and light coughing.” OH WELL THANK YOU GRIM REAPER FOR GIVING ME THESE HORRIBLE SYMTOMS! I’m only dieing here. Well, anyways I drank tea and soup and medicine and nothing has worked. Darn this is really bad. I don’t even feel like doing anything. I’m suprised I have the strength to type right now cause I haven’t really ate anything filling today. I wanted cereal, but milk is bad for me when I’m like this. Ugh I just took some monster pills, hopefully that helps me feel better :] . And my dad just got me puffs tissues, atleast my nosy won’t hurt as much anymore (I was using rough paper towels, bleh).
I live in a world full of idiot people. These people have idiot personalities. They do a lot of idiot things. Having very idiotic minds. With idiotic views. And on top of that they have so much idiotness that they don’t even realize that they’re an idiot because they live in they little idiotic world. Then their the one’s who call you the idiot. How ironic is that?
I miss …
My one and only. This sounds silly coming from the girl who doubted that the relationship was even worth it after a while. It really was. Even though there was soooooooooo much bickering like little girls, in the end everything worked out for the best. I just wish he could’ve gave me the attention that I deserved. That’s all I asked for. If he could just stay with me for hours now than why couldn’t he do that before? WHY?
It’s too late now.
He’s far away and won’t be coming back to see me for months. Let me wait patiently to see if how he feels is true how I feel is true. I mean other guys really annoy me. Like beyond annoyed. Wprds can’t decribe how I feel about other guys. I was thinking hey maybe I’ll get some company for the time being. Hell no, I don’t want any guys company. I mean common I didn’t rant about idiots for nothing :giggles: . Ah, I crack myself up. Well it’s 11:47 pm right now and looks like I should start getting ready for bed, I meen I gotta wake up extra early; 5:40 to be exact. How is a teacher in college going to tell me if I’m late I’m going to fail the course, shit I paid for this class … My scholarship paid for this class so I should be as late as I want as long as the work gets done. Let me not get into that topic. Goodnight :] .
Well right now actually I’m thinking of how much I want my tatoo :] . It’s going to look so cute, I can’t wait. And of course I think of unique and wierd things so it’s of something that your usual doesn’t have. Everyone now-a-days have stars everywhere on their body, I mean it looks fine, but it’s overated. And butterflies? What the? Yes that’s self explanatory. I could list on and on what I’ve seen on people’s bodies, but then that’ll just take up some unwanted space. Well me, Rihab, and Amanda were all talking about that today at some amazing empanada place. We had a lot of interesting funny conversations today, like usual when we’re together. Our sarcastic minds all think alike, how awesome is that. Anyways :testing 1 2 3 testing: I hope tonight goes well cause my day was pretty good so don’t want to end it with a boring night.
Oh yea …
The heading is nerd and I haven’t said not one thing about that word, how ironic :giggles: . Well :clears throat: ahem, here we go, yeaaaaaaaaaaa I got nothing. Stupid Bob with his good topic word and nothing to write under it. Wait silly I am writing something, but this is more like nonsense. Like if a pigeon knew how to write, smoked some ganja, and tried to type with their feathers this would come out. That’s how bad I have nothing to say. Wow my life isn’t interesting anymore. No actually that’s a lie. I don’t go through one day without haveing something to laugh about so I say two thumbs up on the interesting life.
Still nothing about the word nerd.
Let’s try this again. Man I really am a nerd, I keep trying until I get it right :laughs out loud: . Yes I just typed out the meaning of lol, DON’T JUDGE. Just expressing my nerdy self. My nerdsome life. My nerdy vocabulary. All the nerdness of the rainbow. My nerd to your cool? Neh wak I didn’t like that one. I could do better. I was on fiyah earlier. Well look it I talked about nerd for a whole minute it took me to write this little nerdish paragraph. Did you notice all the tenses you can add to the end of nerd.
I’m done talking about nerds
Speaking of nerds I really want them right now like the purple ones are AWESOME! On another note, that extreme tornado today like moved me when I was standing still, Amanda noticed and started dieing of laughter. So if I had an umbrella I could do some mary poppins type thing and fly ontop of a chimney. How cool would that be?
So you thought I was finished didn’t you 8-| ? Ok I’m going to walk away from the keyboard now :slowly slides off the chair and realizes I can’t type if I’m away from the computer: Duh! The End.
Is it true that you tell the truth when you under the influence of any substance? Is that really what you want to say to a person or is that really what you want to do? Are you just acting out of inpulse of your feeling at that certain moment and the next day just forget anything happened?
I hate not knowing. I know when I’m not totally in my right mind I do what I feel at that certain moment. I might regret it the next day, but it was something I couldn’t control. Many times I would call or text a person and tell them how I truely felt during the day about them. Say if something they did I didn’t like, this is the time I would tell them the truth. So maybe the certain drug helps us to let our feelings out. ‘Cause sometimes you might be afraid about telling the truth when sober. Maybe not even afraid but curteous of someone else’s feelings, and I know when I’m under the influence I don’t give two shits about anything. I say what I feel and if I’m happy you’ll know and if I don’t like you YOU’LL DEFINITELY KNOW.
Did I answer my questions? Partially I guess because this is only my point of view. Hm that stinks. I need someone else’s.
Today, hm today. I really don’t know what to say about today. The weather isn’t too great; won’t the sun come out today? No not today the day is almost over. Even if I wanted the sun I’d have to wait until tomorrow. Oh poo. Sort of a bleh day. Wait no I liked earlier today. My new friend Bryan seems pretty awesome. He wanted to fly with me today, but I said “No Way” I need a new job (shakes my head) so nope not today. Aw man, that would’ve been a fun day, but hey at the end of the week I’ll take my flight with my new friend Bryan. I met up with Kareem too today.
Kareem is one of my bestfriends, he’s helped me through a lot of issues I had. I also gave him advice when he truely needed it. I haven’t known him for too long, I actually met him through my other bestfriend Danny. Danny I knew for about 14 years. Wow so long and so many journeys we went through together. I wouldn’t change these two people’s friendship for the world. (Even if they get on my nerves sometimes, but what are friends for).
Oops. I got a little side tracked today too as well, as you can tell. Back to what I did with Kareem today. Well we actually went and ate at the Sunflower Deli today. I had yummy sushi, it was so amazing. That made my day. It’s funny how food comforts a person just as much as a person can comfort you. The thoughts that went through my head today. I hope tomorrow is a better day. If only the sun came out today. There would be so much more to tell about this day.
I never really knew what love was. I thought it was some word that I can use excessively. I knew I love my parents and siblings, but that is more of an unconditional love. I remember saying I love you to people just because they said it to me knowing that I didn’t feel the same. Then came along someone special in my life. With him it was more like love at first sight. I knew he was going to be amazing from the first day I met him. He was so adorable shoving a Chilean empanada in my face to cover up his nervousness. I knew I could find the true definition of love with him. Even though me and him aren’t together, I cherish every moment we had together. I wish he knew how much I love him, but I could never explain it in words. Maybe one day he’ll know and understand. I found my definition of true love.