I'm in the library right now, but I should be heading to the D building so I'm not late to class.
It’s kind of cold outside though =/. Dear wind, I hate you! You make everything seem colder than it really is. Well that’s really your purpose because when it’s extremely hot outside I thrieve for the wind to cool me down..so hate is too strong of a word. I dislike you for the time being.
KT, You’re an orange because on the inside your full extraordinarily energetic juices that just light ppl up & on the outside your just so damn good to look at because your so different from let say a boring potato! BAM take that for flattery.
I push myself from everyone who tries to get close to me and in that pushing process they find another. Is it because people just give up easily? They don’t want to try hard enough. A challenge isn’t what their seeking, but just an open back door. I mean I show no effort because I’m afraid of failure. They show no effort because—are they just emotionless? No feelings. No passion. No love. No compassion.
It’s really sad sometimes how I see certain guys fight for this one girl and get no where, but in actuality there is a girl standing right in front of them. They just walk right past her and not because she isn’t more beautiful or isn’t more intelligent, it’s because this other girl is the only one they see. The one who breaks their heart constantly.
In other cases, guys fear love because it’s something unknown to them. Stop fearing what you don’t know and start with curiosity and let that lead the way.
Or why is it a guy is not the same around you as he is with his friends? Why does the personality change, really? I know I caught ahold of that change when I was with Felipe because I felt like he would judge me, but really he wanted to see my outgoing personality and wanted me to be happy to see him and I was, but I was scared to feel that happy. I’ve learned something in that relationship though and I will take what I’ve learned with me to any new relationship that comes my way. I’ve learned to stop fearing, to be as happy as I am truely feeling. To act like a fool if I wanted to or dance in the streets because that’s just how I’m feeling at that moment; to be me. And if no one can except everything that comes with me then they just don’t deserve me. Sometimes I am quiet and content and people see that as being shy or something in that range, but sometimes I don’t want to talk. Sometimes I want to hug and kiss and smile and watch movies and listen to music and look at the stars and think before I speak. Sometimes I just enjoy the other person’s company and silence makes it all the more precious. People don’t appreciate silence because everywhere around them is noise so that is just something they are used to. Well I need a little bit of both in my life.
Is it bad thing that I feel for no one, but feel for everyone. I care about others, I care about strangers. I wonder what’s in everybody’s mind. I like to be social for that particular reason. I observe and like to hear what there thoughts, ideas, and dreams. I want to share my views, hopes, and desires. I like it when people care or show that they care. I hate it when someone can careless or someone who is very close minded like I used to be. Selfishness is crued. Is it bad for me to want to be wanted. Is it bad for me to love everything even if that thing or person doesn’t love me back. I don’t look for love, I just love. It is true, I am a walking contradiction and my feeling towards thing fluctuate from time to time, but shouldn’t everyone be that way? Shouldn’t everyone be able to change their opinions due to their enviornment? I’m not saying not be you, of course be you, but this is me.