November 2010
October 2010
Don’t drink more than 3 four locos or you will have a major energy boost, black out, then pass out! I’ve seen it happen many times. Beware. Luckily if I drink 2 of them I’ll mix with alcohol like vodka that tastes less strong.
I observe the world every day. For example today I was driving to my aunt’s house and I look outside and there’s actually trees. Trees with leaves coloring oranges, reds, and yellows. We don’t have much of that in this area, but I loved it. It was so beautiful. Then I thought and what if I lived in a secluded area. Would I be happy? I know when I’m settled with a husband I want a backyard, but people have backyards in the city. I’ll plant my own trees and flowers. My own piece of beauty :) or I’d live. 5 minute or so ride from the city, but I’d miss the mayhem too much. It’s home. Nevertheless I want to move to new york with a room mate. Oh that would be great. By central park preferably.
I’ve excepted the way you are towards me and really that’s all I needed to do. The only romance between us is with the kisses I give to you. I feel passionately connected, but is that’s obviously not enough or we would have been together already. I feel like by not letting go I can’t move on to someone new like Michael who is a very nice guy, but the only thing that bothers me is that he is passive. I am the more dominate personality and I’m not really fond of that in a guy. It’s like the guy from “clear eyes” he could be sarcastic verses serious, it all seems the same. Hopefully he breaks down his barriers so I can break down mine. Also I feel more open-minded than him, but he has told me that he likes that about me. I like his positive energy, but he needs not to be scared to show every characteristic of himself. I can be manipulative, devious, evil thinking, insensitive, lustful, etc. No bodies perfect so show your flaws, if you only knew the conversations that me and my best friend Carlos have. I just dislike passive and submissive. That’s one thing I cannot take. Every guy I talk to has to have some kind of dominance or you’re going to viewed of as a friend rather than a lover.
Instead of people reading the newspaper to escape in the news, news is being broad casted on the internet before it even reaches the paper. Is journalism becoming a dead end career or is it expanding in more ways then thought of. Are we growing as a society or is less people reading and using visuals as their source of reading. Society is based on new and approved, but is new really improving the original? These questions speculate my mind from time to time. I just hope we evolve in a more positive way rather than repeating the past and not learning from our mistakes. I seem to repeat things over and over in hope to learn one thing and get that one thing right, but in doing so I find another flaw. No ones perfect, but a mistake and a flaw are two different things.