I feel like all I do is wish. I wish you were mine. I wish I own a sushi bar so I could eat it whenever I pleased. I wish I could go shopping at urban outfitters right now. I wish I owned a car. I wish I got a polaroid camera and a vintage digital professional camera. I wish we went on an actual date. I wish I had my own dance studio. I wish I didn’t get writters block. I wish I could run through a field of flowers happily. I wish I could take shrooms. I wish I can go sky diving. I wish I wish I wish, I wish I stopped wishing.
You know what sucks, hanging out with the guy you used to share the greastest times with, but he is hanging all over his girlfriend the whole time.
This makes me not want to be in a relationship even more. Him being the only person your with 99% of the time, talking baby/mushy talk, agreeing with each other just for the sake of agreeing? DISLIKE.
One, I was disappointed that me and him weren’t able to dance or have a good time with each other. Yea, we used to talk, but that’s the past and besides that we always had a good time together.
Secondly, baby/mushy talk is annoying, being with someone 99% of the time is not love but obsession, and agreeing with every word because you’re afraid of a debate is illogical…fuck illogical, what’s the fun in that?
Why do I sometimes feel as if I am the name of topic?
Like I get these random feelings that someone else is talking about me. I never know if it it’s good or bad until that person confesses when their drunk or sometimes never says anything at all. Hm…I always wondered what were they saying about me…
I'm content with my life, I dislike certain things, I like certain things, but I'm fine how it is.
I don’t mind being single anymore, I realized that enjoying one’s company for some time is fine by me. I don’t believe I’ll never fall in love. I just don’t believe right now is the time it’s going to happen. I like to kiss and hug, I like to laugh, I like to be a goof ball, I like a lot of things; I like love, but I don’t love love. So when I learn to love it is when I will fall in love. I’m in no rush. I know the people who care about me and right now there all I need in my life. Yes, I love meeting new people and I will never stop meeting new people and having new connections. New experiences are the best ones.
I don’t care if I’m talking to a guy seriously or not anymore. If it was meant to be it would’ve been or will be. You just have to be at a place at the right time and the magic will happen on it’s own. I’m a very picky person and I don’t just chose anyone and I won’t just chose anyone, but I’m not going to chase after anyone if I see they aren’t putting any effort. No, I’m not going to push away anymore, but I’m not going to keep running because ever since I started smoking, I run out of breath easily.
This weather puts me in a joyful mood; I’m just happy and happy is me. I can’t wait for the summer because I am ready to explore the world. No time should be wasted. I miss the good old days with my friends. I met so many wonderful people in the summer, I want to do the same again and again and again.
I'm kind of happy he came over, I needed that closure.
I hope he got his closure too, because now I know, I no longer feel the way I felt about him. I can be an asshole and feel happy about being that way towards him. Moving on is one step closer to finding someone who can fill my heart with joyous memories.
I kind of hate when some guys who are so perverse.
If I don’t like you or haven’t given you any hints that I do like you then there is no need for that. If I haven’t told you that I liked you then don’t assume you can be so blunt, I mean I love blunts, but I’ll pass on this one. IF I do like you and you are a perverse person THEN that’s a different story because I’m not going to lie, but I find it exhilerating and pretty damn sexy. Maybe because the sexual attraction is mutual and not just one sided.
When music comes on, it is no longer me exploring this earth, but me vibing inside every single note, beat, intrument, sound, I love, I love, I love. Music you make my world twirl with joy. I want a love like this.